Singing My Heart Out

So I haven't updated this in a while and I can honestly say it's because I was in self pity mode.  I went to Texas for a week in December and it was such a wonderful wonderful thing to be home, but it made returning to New Hampshire just a little tough.  I missed my husband and all but my wonderful friend Beth said this quote the other day "home is where your mom is" and I totally agree.  My heart seems to still be in Texas and I am waiting to feel 100% comfortable in this up north, uncharted, crazy territory that is New Hampshire.  It's cold up here by the way.  Very cold.  You Texans don't take the wonderful winter weather for granted! 

It's pretty crazy how a little Jesus worshiping can put you in a fantastic mood though.  I have been jamming out to some Shawn McDonald radio on Pandora and it's making me feel wonderful!  I have never been good at the prayer thing, or reading the bible, but the singing thing...I have that down (not that I am Mariah Carey or anything but it's just what I know how to do).  I love it and it makes me feel fantastic! I think I sometimes underestimate how much I need a little Jesus, or a lot of Him really.  There are so many things in my life that apparently need some changing, but right now, the life that I have, I just need to be happy in.  Sure I can work daily to make things better but if I stress about finding a new job, paying bills, and missing the heck out of Texas I am going to be miserable.  I am not a miserable person, I don't do well with being unhappy.  So this is my public declaration to quit being so lame! I want to learn how to play my guitar, I want to be crafty, I want to enjoy the beauty in the snow that is outside (even in negative weather) and I want to enjoy life.  There is sooooo much good going on, especially the fact that my best friend is getting married!!, and I want to just be happy about all of it.  

P.S. my husband is sooo rocking grad school and I couldn't be more proud of him.  It's for sure the biggest thing that makes me know that it's all worth it :)